Friday, May 7, 2010


Dear Mother:

This letter is over 30 years overdue. I guess the expression, "Better Late Than Never", can apply here, but somehow, it still doesn't seem to fit.

I miss you terribly. I ache to see you just one more time, to hear your laughter fill the room, to feel your touch. How I would cherish you, respect you. I would hold you ever so close.

But this letter is a lot more than what I would do if you were here is a letter of apology. When I think of all the mean things I said to you, how I held you in contempt, how I hated you, I feel embarrassed. But mostly I am ashamed. The feeling of shame is so overwhelming I can hardly breath sometimes. I was NOT a good daughter, much less the friend you wanted me to be.

Most folks my age say their prayers at night...I say, "Good Night, Mommie, I love you". Do you hear me? Can you ever forgive me? Yes, I know I have some justifications...but really, I don't. No matter what mistakes you made, I didn't have to act the way I did...I had a choice, I took the low road! I could have loved you, I could have seen through the craziness and forgiven you.

What mistakes you made were nothing compared to what I did to you. I shut you out of my life, I despised you and for what? Your biggest mistake with me was loving me. I am deeply and regretably sorry, from the bottom of my heart. I lay my soul at your feet and humbly beg your forgiveness.

If you were here today, I would be different, I would know how a loving daughter acts toward her Mother. I would have no regrets. As it is, here I sit, writing this overdue letter.

I love you and I miss you...

Your Loving Daughter,



  1. You just made me cry! That was a beautiful letter and I'm sure she is smiling and looking down on you and keeping you close to her heart! Happy Mother's Day Suzi!, I love you!

  2. Thank you Mechelle, I love you too.

  3. "Forgiveness is the fragrance the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it." ---Mark Twain (i forgive you for making me cry, suzi)

    :) xoxo, meems

  4. That is beautiful, Mimi...thank you.