I may (or may not) have mentioned that I am re-doing Tony and Lisas' Family Room. We have been emailing, texting, and skyping. I am 3000 miles away. I call it my Remote Redo.
I will have some before and after photos, but just to tease you a bit, is this Luggage Cart I bought, had restored in North Carolina and gave to Lisa for her Birthday Present. It is an old one, and as you can see, was in terrible condition. And here is the after.
Happy Birthday Josh...I wish we could be there to eat ice cream cake with you! We love you very much and can't wait to see you again soon!!! Josh when he was 11 years old! Josh when he was 8 years old!
This letter is over 30 years overdue. I guess the expression, "Better Late Than Never", can apply here, but somehow, it still doesn't seem to fit.
I miss you terribly. I ache to see you just one more time, to hear your laughter fill the room, to feel your touch. How I would cherish you, respect you. I would hold you ever so close.
But this letter is a lot more than what I would do if you were here now...it is a letter of apology. When I think of all the mean things I said to you, how I held you in contempt, how I hated you, I feel embarrassed. But mostly I am ashamed. The feeling of shame is so overwhelming I can hardly breath sometimes. I was NOT a good daughter, much less the friend you wanted me to be.
Most folks my age say their prayers at night...I say, "Good Night, Mommie, I love you". Do you hear me? Can you ever forgive me? Yes, I know I have some justifications...but really, I don't. No matter what mistakes you made, I didn't have to act the way I did...I had a choice, I took the low road! I could have loved you, I could have seen through the craziness and forgiven you.
What mistakes you made were nothing compared to what I did to you. I shut you out of my life, I despised you and for what? Your biggest mistake with me was loving me. I am deeply and regretably sorry, from the bottom of my heart. I lay my soul at your feet and humbly beg your forgiveness.
If you were here today, I would be different, I would know how a loving daughter acts toward her Mother. I would have no regrets. As it is, here I sit, writing this overdue letter.
It's been way too long since I posted to my blog. I have had a lot on my plate and I am going a bit crazy this week. I did want to let everyone know that I am still here, still working, and still trying to get everything done. Below is one item I am working on...hope you like it!!!This beautiful Sugar Shaker is going on The Cottage Look later this week!
I live in Los Angeles with my husband, Jed. We have lived here for 37 years and counting. We love to read, travel, watch old movies and hang out. We also go to the theater, and we love to spend time with friends and family.
Together, we have 4 children and 5 grandchildren.
Oh, and of course, there is Pixie, our Maltepoo, whom we share custody with Ivan Molina.
Please contact me at www.thecottagelook.com or 213/448-3399.